Something Of Anything............

Well.... it was Amran's birthday party last Friday and we all end up at Jian Sern's place. It was such a nice time catching up with everybody.. joking and have fun. We were having BBQ with a bit of alcohol and salads.
Well, the reason of writing here is not to talk about the party but, my love life. While I was barbecuing the foods there's few girls came over and leaving some remarks about me. The remarks was a bit sexually related or... more as.. they were looking for more attention from me. Well, only one girl thats really caught my attention that night and that was [somebody]. She's cute and lovely. With her short and spaghetti top... no man could turn their head away. After the BBQ we went upstairs and continue our night with a game of poker. Me being a chicken shit rejected to play but end up tag teaming with [somebody] instead (nice move hey??? :p :p). We played until 4 in the morning and then we all decided to head home. [Somebody] end up being drove by Nicholas and I drove myself back home.
Somehow for some reason I didnt feel anything at all that night. Have no feeling of courting [somebody] at all. It was more of... well... i'm having fun... thats all... and I feel nothing until... sunday morning when I wake up and suddenly I felt..... why didnt I court her? Why didnt I offer to drive her back home that night? Uhm... I think I should.
So I sat down with my laptop on thinking of dropping he an email. I dont have her mobile number thats why I need to mail her instead. I can easily get her mobile number from my colleague but... I prefer to get it from her by myself.
After sitting down and think, I still not sure what to do. The question is that not really what to do in order to contact her... but what to do once I got her. I just not sure what else to do once I have a girlfriend. I had enough problems already previously with girls and somehow my heart is telling me that headache is coming soon. So.. the problem here is should I email [somebody]or not?

Think I should.. bwahahahhahahahha
Will inform you people later about the outcome.........

Hatim

Yeah.... life goes a bit ok right now. But, for an optimist (as one of my friend called me) can't complain much.... here and there. I'm driving to my dad's hometown tonight (Sik, Kedah) that's gonna take me a good 6 hours of driving. Lucky that my cousin Zaki wanna come around and asking me to drop him at his parent's house at Sg Petani. At least I wont be bored driving alone. Anyway, I had diarrhea few days ago. Was kinda bad... but somehow it made me happy. Do you want to know why? Sometimes when i am free... free as in... happy... no money problem.. nobody annoying me... good health... I thank god. I'm not a good muslim which I cant even remember when was the last time that I prayed but one thing for sure I know how to be thankful. Yeah, I was thankful when I am free from anything that's giving me headache and when came the diarrhea, i found it interesting. I was like.... cool... I have diarrhea!!!! Hahahahhahaha....
I somehow think that it was a blessed to suffer for a while. I took medical leave from my office, didnt even go to a clinic but end up in a convenience store with a bottle of coke, root beer and 100 plus (my mom said that 100 plus is a good remedy for diarrhea). I drank lots of water... hot tea... warm barley and have a good rest... yeah.. it helps :p :p :p
I went back home from office around 12 midday and then slept the whole afternoon. Woke up roughly at 6.. watch TV... took a light dinner and continue again my sleep around 11 at night and one miracle thing happened to me that night (no... not that one hot angel came down and let me hump her... that might be the devil himself instead) . I had a dream. What kind of dream? I dunno... can't even remember it but its not something complicated or whatever... just some relaxed dream. What kind of dream is not the main issue here but, I haven't had dream in years!!!! It's kinda nice by having dreams... its like having TV in your head and you just enjoy it and let it flow without even staring at the tube. It was a blessed.... I felt happy when I woke up... energized... wow......................
Anyway guys.... just one thing... whatever your belief is... and no matter how good or bad you are towards your belief... just be thankful. Somebody is watching us up there and for sure you dont want to mess up with him anytime. Be thankful with whatever you got... and if you have some extra loose change... give it away to the one who needs it more than you do. Well after you die.. there's no use of having millions of dollar inside your bank and let some bastards spending for you instead :p

Have a nice weekend
Hatim

Well, it all went almost smoothly. I spent my weekend with xxx by going to Genting Highlands spending our Saturday there and then came back down to KL and spent our night at my place. We woke up late almost midday on Sunday and then hang out at my house for a while until afternoon and then head to Subang and end up at The Curve in Damansara. We had our dinner there and we enjoyed each second of our time together there.

She cried yeah.... once before we left my place and then at the car park at The Curve before I left her. Told her that I wont be contacting her again and wont be replying to her SMS anymore. It just that for the sake of her marriage. Still a week to go and she better has a straight mind on it.

She told me to quit drinking, smoking, coffee, less red meat and take care of my diet and health. Just because recently I went to doctor and he told me that I better start taking care of my diet as blood pressure suddenly shooting sky roof. Yeah... at 29 and having a high blood pressure. Fuck life.

Well, im still missing her today. Nobody for me to call in the morning to wake her up, nobody to report to that i'm already safely arrived in my office and no one to pick me up in the morning when im super drunk in the middle of KL. Sigh.

I'm an alcoholic. Yes I am.

All the best to you all