I'm currently a bit depressed by my family current situation which gonna get worse by next month. I'm not a guy who really believe in luck anyway. Shit comes and goes as they want and good luck will only gonna come if I work hard enough for it or being given by somebody (Mom, friends, superiors). I read horoscope for fun and never actually believe in it although sometimes what were described for my zodiac almost similar of what i've been facing everyday. Somebody used to tell me before that lucks have been surrounded me in all of my life and i just smiled back and recently I end up telling somebody else that my life had been so beautiful, getting what i wanted and smooth sailing. I really afraid that if one day i'm going to run out of lucks and end up having a miserable life instead. Without me knowing it by saying those actually already making me to believe in luck. Shit happens but I really need a out-of-jail ticket right now. I'm not sure if this is because lack of experience in managing stress and problems or actually a one way ticket to hell. Anyway, 2008 just started. It started beautifully for me and surrounded with all good people. Love and happiness was everywhere. So, if this bad luck gonna come now then just come cause i'm gonna fuck my way to heaven no matter what's the cause I believe in Qada' dan Qadar and fighting for my own life is what i've been doing all this time.
Even though shit comes i've never forget to be thankful for this life that i'm currently:
- Have my beautiful mom next to me that I will defend her to death whatever comes
- My princess is the best person i've known thats seeing her makes me forget all of my problems for a while. Being with you is the best time spend for me princess.
- My friend Ajoy which we always comfort each other every time we were facing hard time in life.
- My life which consists of my work, my salary, my castle which is my home, the country which i'm living in, my health that i'm not even coughing right now, my body which was beautifully constructed for me and all the crowds around me which make my life more interesting.
Thank you for all these lovely things and if this is the shit that You are sending it to me, watch me handle it. Alhamdulillah, i've been enjoying my life a lot more than what all the bad things that You had sent to me.
This is the song that i'm currently listening. It somehow makes me very very very thankful of what state i'm at the moment. Be thankful and fight for my life.
Civil war from GNR. What's so civil about war anyway?
When they shot the man
Who said "Peace could last forever"
And in my first memories
They shot Kennedy
I went numb when I learned to see
So I never fell for Vietnam
We got the wall of D.C. to remind us all
That you can't trust freedom
When it's not in your hands
When everybody's fightin'
For their promised land